Janel's Place

I should start blogging again. Today was a sad day! I don't like losing the patients I have been taking care of for several days. It hurts. Especially when it's a beautiful, lovely horse like this one was. I went and watched the Secretariat movie afterwards and I had some moments of realization that helped a little. Horses are meant to run, frolic, play, use their beautiful athleticism and their amazing attitudes and strength to just be horses. My girl today couldn't do that anymore, and wouldn't have been able to do that for a long, long time. It may be because I see sick and hurt horses every day now that I start to lose touch a little bit with the tragedy that is a horse that can barely walk. I'm going to try and take a lesson from this so that I don't risk taking a horse too far down a road that she can't recover from just because I don't want to lose her. This horse did have a chance, it is true, but it wasn't a good one, and I accept that with sadness.

So I'm too sad to blog. But veterinary school is still awesome. I have another awesome patient in the barn, and there are many great animals that have gone home happy! It's just hard to focus on them tonight.
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